wish to be home...

i cant take this anymore...luckily there are stil tv rooms in hostel...place for me to escape to.. exam period is the most lonely period which i hate most which makes me homesick most... some ppl like to study alone...some do not ( i m one of them), some lucky ones get to study with company but some do not depending to the group of frens u have... i miss my school time when i was staying at home...studying at home...i will never be left alone...thanks to sis, bro n yao....really miss those time everynight we study together...on weekends or during study break we wil be together since morning... though last time i used to complain them noisy... ask them to shut up sometimes.. esp sis and yao fighting over some gossips...some artiste issues which have nothing to do with them... but now i really miss that a lot....at least that time when bored i could kacau them...talked nonsense...made fun of ppl.. laughed...chased each other..fought for chinese entertainment newspaper everynight when mum came back though all of us can hardly read mandarin...all those memories...has been years ago...since me and Yao left high school, we never study together again..left sis and bro...and now bro alone... Ah Yao and sis has alredy graduated..time flies..i miss all of u...

yenny

" Live in such harmony that others may take your lives for an example and may say one to another: Look how they live like two doves in one nest, in perfect love, affinity and union. It is as though God had kneaded the very essence of their beings for the love of one another."

.....excerpt from an interesting webpage....

http://www.docstoc.com/docs/7836659/Bahai-Marriage-(Chinese)

Yesterday was our 3rd Anniversary.... =) May God bless us along the way...

My dear now is in Moscow waiting 20++ hours for the domestic flight to Volgograd...Hope he has a safe journey...

with love...

weekend...

Feel soo nice after cleaning up the whole room...=) Hope medicine paper this morning turn out ok ...couldnt wait to start my holiday next week...Bali here i come ..
And i start missing him dy... Another 10 months gonna be fast =) gonna go pasar ramadhan...

yenny

be strong...

I will be having med sessional tml morning...yet i m here wasting time...I cant concentrate...i need to talk but I have to suppress myself...i hate myself...my emotions are like in a turmoil...hate these feelings.... whether is it PMS...i dunno....i m getting very oversensitive lately...i got sad easily...it is just not convenient for me to talk...this is not the first time neither wil it be the last time...I need to talk...i need console.. i dun want to be treated coldly like a stranger...i know it is no one's fault...sometimes human gets tired..sometimes circumstanses just dun allow it..i know life is never prefect.. I have accepted it... but, I still cant control my emotions..God, assist me..give me strength to go thru all these...Pray to god...i want to be a strong gal...i want to be independent...i dun want to get affected by ppl easily....i have stil a lot to cover for tml....calm down and study....tomorrow's wil be a better day...

hope u r by my side at this moment,
yenny

missing u...

2 months have passed without me realising it....you are goin back to complete ur studies very soon.. is just too fast....really hoping that time stops temporarily...it feels like is just yesterday when I was waiting excitedly for u to come home... then after waiting for a torturing long week.. again i was so excited to meet u in melaka sentral on that particular friday evening, after almost a year we are apart.. I miss this summer a lot...longest time ever that we get to accompany each other...Have a safe journey back dear..i m goin to miss u terribly...=)

love u,
yenny

excited!

Couldnt wait for next week!!..never been to any water park b4...this will be my first time to Bukit Merah Laketown Resort...so soo sooo happy..hehe...
gotta prepare for my PBL now...concentrate and study study hard now...then go for holiday!

yenny

determination...

Tml wil be my last posting in semester 6..medicine..hopefully can proceed to next sem succesfully..tml wil be getting Dr Anoop for our clinic's session..we all like him a lot..a young smart charismatic doctor..who can deliver his class very well...I like the way he speaks..full with confidence...
I need to get back my confidence, my determination, and discipline...life is indeed tough..

yenny

Sunday morning...

Early in the morning, junling and I and jj went to xinho for breakfast and shopping for fruits...then came back to room, bathed and gonna continue my med sdl.. Sometimes, i keep thinking...am i overly sensitive..easily get affected..i got sad whenever i feel that ppl who are important in my life get angry with me..treating me coldly..ignoring me.. probably this is not the real situation..probably I have been thinking too much..and there are other reasons behind the coldness..ignorance etc....i keep reassuring myself..i know I wont be wrong...i have confidence in myself and my loved ones... I admit that I am the typical little gal who wants to be coaxed always...I dun wish my loved ones raise their voice to me or treating my coldly..though i know sometimes is all my fault and they did that out of good intention when i do something wrong...yet i just cant help it...i got really upset...wil just drown myself and go to sleep... manytimes I hope I can make myself stronger.. no matter who scolds me, I wont give a damn bout it ..just like how i m immuned to strangers' scolding, they wont be able to affect me.. On the other hand, I dun want that to occur...i dun want to be a feeling-less person..is just too pathetic...even animals have feeling...Probably I become wat i am today because I have a very protective family esp mum & dad who wil never let me get hurt..and now is the time for their little gal to go out and experience the cruelty of life..yet whenever i m unhappy...they are always there for me and told me "dun be scared..dun bother other ppl..nothing wil happen"...Those simple words give me lots of courage..i dun even scared of anyone anymore...i stil remember the first time when i had that wonderful feeling..it was when I was 16..goin for the motorbike licensing examination back home..the instructors keep shouting at me because I am inexperienced..I got upset, embarrased , and feel like dun wanna go for further sessions and dun wanna take bike license anymore...Normally i wil just keep it to myself.. One day, I cant stand it anymore..i told my dad that person is a real idiot keep shouting at me...dad told me dun bother bout him..let him shout..just let it go in 1 ear go out another .. he cant do anything to me...then after the session go home..dun let it affect me...Since then, I dunno where i gain the courage to face those ppl... They just did not be able to affect me anymore..whenever they scold i wil start dreaming..haha...feel so puas!!
Gotta go pick up a fren from bus station then to lunch later...Sunday..weekend gonna ends soon..is just too fast... Lately, I seem to have tremendous swings of emotion...make myself suffer and hurt ppl around me also...I am very sorry ..esp to my dear who has to bear all these... I am angry at u sometimes but... wanna tell u that you still hold the only special position in my heart..Have a safe journey back home..

with love,
yenny

saturday morning...

Raining heavily...waiting for it to stop so that we can cycle out to xinho...
another brand new day..study hard and be happy =)

yenny