to those who care...

tonight was a bad nite...hp run out of credit...mind wandering..couldnt study..nothing go in..but time is ticking away very fast... outside was raining heavily , has been raining nonstop for the past few days, that's also how my feeling and emotion has been recently... He just told me i have to overcome this myself..prob he is right..noone can help me... i wont complain anything anymore...just accept watever consequences that wil happen..gulping everything down ...dun feel guilty ..and dun have to make any explanation to anyone...dun fear of anything..
thanks YW again...i knew i have been disturbing her too much lately..guess very few wil willing to spend their precious time during the study break listening to their fren.. during your time of needs only u wil realise who are those frens who really care...and to YL n LY( met her today , had a short nice chat)..thanks to veno for the help... may god bless all those kind souls...

thank u ..

Life wasnt so smooth sailing lately...everything doesnt seem to be falling in place...everything seems to be so harsh on me ..life full with anxiety and life has gone haywire... & my dear suffers because of me ...without fail he listens to me everyday...offering advices..jokes to make me happy...u have done a lot for me dear...
uni uni uni... 10 more days to go..dunno how my weak soul going to go thru this..so much more to cover and MEMORIZE!!.. could just seek for assistance from god, support from beloved mum and dad and my dear...without them i would have given up ..my body and mind would have given way..but for all my loved ones, i wil persevere...

Hi again!

Hi folks! Sorry for not updating this blog for so long..Just got back to Msia 3 days ago...Will update the photos we have taken slowly...Stay tune :-)

end of trip...

tonight my dear wil spend the last night of his trip in the airport ...to catch tml early morning flight back to moscow......hopefully i wil be able to contact him soon...:-) ..today has entered the 3rd day of study break..the stress slowly building up... the library is now full with my batchmates...all of us wil be having the same routine life in these3 weeks...breakfast-study-lunch-study-dinner-study-sleep..pathetic!!! deep in the heart, i hope all these end fast.... i just wanna pass and go home.....how i wish passing uni is as easy as passing spm/A-level.. haih..all these wil just remain a dream... seniors said 2nd year supposed to be less stressful compared to 1st year..but somehow i dun feel so, i feel i m coping with the stress of uni better in first year... HUh!! anyway wil tyr my best to cope with it now..god bless...dear come back faster...

end=beginning...

Today..this evening, i finished my patho practical paper..which means block 4 exam has come to the end..which also indicates the beginning of the most gruesome month of the year.."study break" starting tomorrow..this year we have 22 days in contrast to first year whereby we have 21 days for "study break"(wat an irony!! study can never be equal to break!!)..which wil eventually lead to uni..i m very sure the day wil arrive very fast without us realising it..
guess now my dear should be in Amsterdam already..few more days to go b4 we are reunited again...just now spend some time chatting with few of my worthy and true frens who really care for me..thanks YW and J for listening to my probs and help me to analyse my prob and try their best to help me.. thanks god for sending them to me...
gonna sleep dy...last day of rest tonight..god bless

separation...

finally, the day i dreaded most arrrived somehow... i thought i could handle it well..but today proved that i m completely wrong.. i m weak as usual ...prob the exam stress make it even worse.. he is away from me completely now.. phsycically.. but i miss him so much .. i stil hope for miracles somehow...I guess i have become very much emotionally dependent on him..
Hope tml wil be a better day.. God, pls stop me from thinking nonsense and worrying unnecessarily, and bless me with a clear mind to study...

1st day...

Now, my dear is on the train to Moscow..starting his first-ever backpacking journey.. leaving at about 5 pm just now....19 hrs journey..huh..the longest we took during our north india trip was just 14 hrs... ..hope u have a memorable trip dear...:-) miss u...

missing u...

Tonight came back earlier from library than usual...it wil be the last night i wil be seeing my dear..then have to wait 20 days later...the feeling is not right..mixed feeling..though i m supposed actually be mentally prepared for it..but when the day arrives, somehow...stil feel sad...this time wil be the first time we wil be totally lost contact..no phone..no sms.. just email if lucky.. within this one year..we practically see each other every day... :-) thinking back, really dunno how we can actually survive the whole first year without seeing each other...:-) and this wil also be my first exam without u being with me..wishing me luck every night/ morning..consoling me after each paper...luckily it is just block exam..i stil have u with me for uni.. really gonna miss u so much dear...take care ..take care n take care along the journey yea...have a safe journey to u all.....looking forward to see u at home... love..